I haven’t been blogging for ages,oh my god.So yeah,I’m back I hope? I’ll try to post some stuff more often now.
So much has happened lately. The main reason I wasn’t online was because I had to revise for my final exams. My first uni semester is officially over,I still don’t know if I passed all exams though. Keep your fingers crossed for me haha.
Another reason would be that we had some “family” issues. A family member had been struggling with cancer for a long time but has now passed away. So please understand,I wasn’t really in the mood to post anything.The atmosphere here is still not really good,so yeah. I don’t really wanna talk about it.
Moreover,I had this strange feeling lately. This strange feeling that my old friends and me are constantly drifting further apart from each other & I can’t do anything. Maybe it’s just my imagination but I’m still worried. I can’t even explain this feeling but it’s the little things that people say or do that make me think this way.
So what do I do? Put my headphones on,and listen to my favorite bands. Lately they have been my only escape.
so today we got back our midterm exam and mwahaha,guess what?! Mine was one of the best! *-* WHY WAS I EVEN SO AFRAID OF IT? Haha well,I was super happy and yeah. : ) I hope the final exam is gonna be similar. Now it’s only one day of university (on friday) left and then it’s holidaaays. Oh wait,I forgot: The world’s gonna end right? Total bullshit if you ask me,haha.
So right now I’m sat in my room enjoying my can of Monster,I’m addicted to that stuff. I’m probably going to play some PS3 later because I finally beat Pokemon Black Version 2 and now I can continue with the PS3 games I still haven’t finished.
Okay that’s it for now,bye!
Is it you,could it be?
The one who’s always haunting me?
I stare into that broken mirror
and scream into the starless sky.
I can’t forget
what you once did.
What you once caused
inside my head.
I can’t forgive
what you once said.
And we both know,
this love is dead.
Finally got this awful week done with,no more studying for the next days,no more exams until January & looking forward to Christmas now. I hope the midterm exam wasn’t that bad,probably getting the result next Tuesday. But well,why worry about it when it can’t be changed anymore? One damn week of university left and then… oh yeah,the world will end. No seriously,I don’t believe in that shit & I know it’s gonna be the most annoying day ever on Facebook and Twitter and stuff.
9 days until Christmas,I can’t believe it haha. And I’m already waaay too excited,I wonder what my friends and parents got me. It is my birthday on the same day after all. Oh but before that,I’m gonna see The Hobbit on Thursday!! *-* Can’t wait! I doubt it’ll be as good as the Lord of the Rings movies though,they were just perfect. (Plus,there’s no Aragorn awww…)
Today I got me and my friends tickets for the Sleeping With Sirens show in Cologne on May 31st! It’ll be their only show here in Germany (and I think it’s their first one too). Franzi came over today too, and we did some songwriting again which we hadn’t done in ages. And yeah,we were kinda celebrating that we got the tickets haha,cuz we both love that band. –> Probably gonna try to find some good guitar chords and stuff for the song tomorrow. I would do it now but my whole family is already asleep and I’d probably wake them up.
It’s almost 1:00am here,so I’m just gonna play some Pokemon now & then go to sleep. Goodnight!
And again I have to start a blog entry with SORRY for my absence. I’ve been so busy studying for that goddamn midterm exam lately. It’s sooo much to learn and ugh,good thing that this shit will be over soon. So yeah midterm exam on Tuesday & going to uni for ONE stupid talk with a professor on Wednesday. Christmas,hurry the fuck up. : ( another short blog entry because I need to continue studying.
Oh yeah,I added a photo to the About Me section in case you guys want to know what I look like,haha.
Sorry for not posting an update yesterday but I didn’t really feel good and even stayed home instead of going to university. And I don’t know,this morning I stood in front of the mirror and realized that I just hate everything about my appearance.My hair,my eyes,my nose,my skin… A really good friend of mine has this new camera and she’s pretty as fuck and well,she took amazing photos and I know I’ll never have such great photos of myself. Kinda made me sad. Don’t get me wrong,I’m not jealous of her or something. It’s quite the contrary,I’m really proud of her when seeing such photos,she’s one of my best friends after all. It’s just I’m never really content with MY appearance.
ARGH I’m gonna stop with this shit now,I’m getting even more depressed writing this.
So right now I’m sat in my room & drinking a can of Rockstar and…I actually SHOULD start studying. xD
Time never stops its hunt.
Dashing into our unknown future,
sending prayers up the sky,
but as we take another step
we find ourselves get lost in time.
Every breath brings us closer to the end,
every “goodbye” could be the last.
So when you wake up every day,
remember these words
for they could be my last.
Sorry for not posting something earlier but I came home from university at 7pm and then had to do my homework and…ugh. Mondays really are the worst days. And I have to get up at 6.30am again tomorrow. Aaaaand then I must learn the rest of the week because mid-term exams are coming up next week. Somebody kill me,where did my free time go?!At least I have two days off on Wednesday and Thursday and only one lesson on Friday…
So yeah,right now I’m sat in my room sipping my hot wine and practicing guitar. I didn’t have much time for that lately. /is currently learning Roger Rabbit by Sleeping With Sirens.
And now ladies & gentlemen,take a look at this fucking amazing band which just released this music video and got signed to Sumerian Records! <3
“Run,run far away from here.
Escape this prison called reality
and leave footprints in your fantasy.
Take,take this hand,my dear.
Don’t let go of this imaginary
and hold onto your destiny.
We’ve been living in this world,
restless and in mourning.
Now this is our chance to make a change.
But will you ever take it?
Will you ever take my hand?“
“I write about eight hours a day, five days a week and then play games the rest of the night and hang out with my son.”
- M.Shadows to USA Today
Oh my god,I just died. Congrats to Matt and Val! <3 So happy for them!